I need somewhere for my thoughts. I find lately they get trapped in my head and I have no where to release them. I've always been much better at coherently expressing my thoughts through writing rather than the verbal word. Always. I stutter through the things I'm trying to express and lack the confidence and vocabulary verbally...but when I write, I feel a release - it helps me let go of the things I need to process.
It's been over a year since I last blogged. I needed to step away to separate myself, to sort myself, and come back to myself. And in that time, I've made choices I wouldn't have blogged about, made choices I've never thought I'd make, and let those choices and decisions reform who I am inside. Choices that have brought me back to my Creator...that helped me fall back in love with my Saviour - the Saviour who has patiently waited for me to acknowledge Him. It's what I've referred to as my everyday calling...because hindsight I see how indeed he did call to me everyday...through people, moments, and life. In those times, I chose not to respond. He so clearly called and I so clearly chose to ignore those callings.
But He never gave up. He kept calling, kept calling, kept calling...and waiting. Patiently. And then all of a sudden - in His time - I was just so passionately filled with Him. His love, his freedom, his forgiveness...I responded to his everyday calling. I'm sure God sighed, rolled his eyes a little bit (yep - I believe my God has a sense of humour), and said, "Finally."
And so here I am. This is my everyday calling - to fall in love everyday with the Saviour who set me free. I needed somewhere to process these thoughts and take the time to release these thoughts out into the universe. I'm inviting you to listen, to read along, and share your journey too. I know I should journal more often than I do...but I don't. I never take that time, but for some strange reason, I take the time to blog. Some of the blogs will stay hidden from the world out there - some of the blogs are just for my heart, for my mind...but some, I'd like to share with you. Because maybe your journey mirrors mine. Maybe there are words that you need to hear. Maybe this is your everyday calling. Or maybe you'd just like to journey into my heart and brain and soul with me. I'm okay with that too.
"When you call on me, when you come and pray to me, I’ll listen. When you come looking for me, you’ll find me. Yes, when you get serious about finding me and want it more than anything else, I’ll make sure you won’t be disappointed...I’ll turn things around for you. I’ll bring you back from all the countries into which I drove you...bring you home to the place from which I sent you off into exile. You can count on it." - Jeremiah 29:12-14 (The Message)
